sometimes i wish...

i was born with a manual. sometimes i dont understand myself. this whole balance thing is getting pretty tough. i thank God for where He has brought me from and to. However, my job is simply taking over my life. i have only been working permanently for 3 months (a total of 9 months if you count me working temp.) and already i am putting in PTO.

it is making me wonder about my future and honestly i cant see myself doing this for any longer than 1 or 2 years.

i dont hang out. i barely treat myself to anything because i am usually too tired to. prime example, i am thinking about all of the things i have due on Monday. i feel as if my job is putting too much responsibility on a person that has only been there for 3 months. when my supervisor was out, i was treated as the next in line to handle incoming requests by assigning them to my co-workers.

i really dont know how to handle this because i am a yesman. i dont complain and i always manage to get my work done even if it means coming in an hour early or leaving an hour later.

i know i should be grateful to have a job but i just needed to vent. this was the only way that i knew how.

i feel like im being taken advantage of and most of my days dont make sense. all i know is im tired. physically and mentally.

i wish i could sing and write all day.

if you are dealing with something similar, let me know below:)