Sunday, March 20, 2011

sometimes i wish...

i was born with a manual. sometimes i dont understand myself. this whole balance thing is getting pretty tough. i thank God for where He has brought me from and to. However, my job is simply taking over my life. i have only been working permanently for 3 months (a total of 9 months if you count me working temp.) and already i am putting in PTO.

it is making me wonder about my future and honestly i cant see myself doing this for any longer than 1 or 2 years.

i dont hang out. i barely treat myself to anything because i am usually too tired to. prime example, i am thinking about all of the things i have due on Monday. i feel as if my job is putting too much responsibility on a person that has only been there for 3 months. when my supervisor was out, i was treated as the next in line to handle incoming requests by assigning them to my co-workers.

i really dont know how to handle this because i am a yesman. i dont complain and i always manage to get my work done even if it means coming in an hour early or leaving an hour later.

i know i should be grateful to have a job but i just needed to vent. this was the only way that i knew how.

i feel like im being taken advantage of and most of my days dont make sense. all i know is im tired. physically and mentally.

i wish i could sing and write all day.

if you are dealing with something similar, let me know below:)

1 comment:

  1. If you don't like something in your life change it. Is it that you don't like your job and want to explore something else, or is it that you have a lesson to learn? While it might be the first, I think it's the latter.

    It's time for you to spread your wings into the woman that you are suppose to be. Don't say you are a yesman, find out why and how you can overcome that. If you overcome it, you might a. find out that you are okay with your job that you now have given yourself back the power that you deserve or b. find out you still hate the job but have a new skill that you can carry on in your life journey.

    We are living in a different time of being overwhelmed and multi-tasking under the circumstances that no babyboomer can keep up with. You have to learn how to remind people that you are a human.