Friday, March 30, 2012

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Soon it will be over...long time coming :)

I know it has been a little while. These days have been filled with wonder, confusion, and deep thought. I am happy though to say I am becoming more at peace and content with life's situations and problems. I am starting now to not sweat the small stuff and am realizing everything truly happens for a reason.

My mind has been focused on finding my purpose, true joy, and what makes me happy. What makes me happy is helping others, singing for God, and staying close to the ones who truly love and care for me. Nothing else matters...really.

Cliches aren't just simple cliches that are sparked from thin air. They are relative to every day life and will make sense in due time.

As I move forward, my prayer is that I never lose this feeling and moment. I pray I can share my whole story one day and feel no remorse or shame.

I am a work in progress but steady moving forward. I pray you are doing the same.

*Side note: I will be done with that work situation 3/31/12. I will update you guys on that and everything it has taught me.

Well love you all :) xoxo

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

this made me laugh...HA!


Definitely needed this...it has been a lllllooooooonnnnnggggg couple of weeks!

Thursday, March 1, 2012

It's March!

I cant believe it is March already and I do welcome it in because I am ready for the weather change.

This month I plan on finally getting out through "it" with ease, patience, and strength. I feel like it has been a long time coming but I know this situation will get better. I plan on stressing less, drinking more water, and getting back to my workout routine. I think I will just keep it simple for now since Weight Watchers didnt work for me (I believe it still can work but its just not for me right now...my work life will not allow it).

Well...HAPPY MARCH!!!



Friday, February 17, 2012

made my day...ASHANTI!

There could never nnnnneeeeevvvvveeeee....eeeeevvvvvveeerrr....EVER! be another Whitney Houston but I really enjoyed this tribute :)

Friday, February 3, 2012

Monday, January 30, 2012

Speak Up! Pt. 2

Ever had a situation bring everything into full circle?

Well, right now I feel like I am going through that situation right now. I am being put in situations that have definitely caused me to think...seriously think. It is really putting things into perspective.

I was granted an opportunity (or at the time I thought was an opportunity) through work that I figured would show my abilities within my scope. Needless to say, it is the total opposite. So far, I have been given things that I would categorize as work that no one else wants to do. It literally brought me to tears because here I am this guinea pig trying to make it work because I am thinking "oh this is my opportunity" to advance, to show my abilities.

What Ive learned so far is you have to speak up. You may think that just because you are told to do something, it means you have to do it. Not correct even if it is in a working environment. Never go beyond your means or job description. Everyone in that environment makes a check just like you and you cant allow people to use you because they have set in their mind "oh she'll do it." People will be people and will take advantage of you if you allow them to. NO! The answer is no.

All my life I have been a "yesman". That stops now!

Speaking up caused me to see that yes I was given tasks out of my scope and it gave clarity so that the next person does not have to deal with what I went through.

Speaking up made me feel better and helped me to sleep better at night.

Long story short, I cannot wait until February is over so that I can get out of this situation. Never again!

So the moral of the story is dont let people/money deter you from your mental health and standing for yourself. I would much rather have good health and a peace of mind than a million dollars in the bank...think about it.

Hope this makes sense. There is only so much I can tell...you never know whose reading:)