Monday, January 30, 2012

Speak Up! Pt. 2

Ever had a situation bring everything into full circle?

Well, right now I feel like I am going through that situation right now. I am being put in situations that have definitely caused me to think...seriously think. It is really putting things into perspective.

I was granted an opportunity (or at the time I thought was an opportunity) through work that I figured would show my abilities within my scope. Needless to say, it is the total opposite. So far, I have been given things that I would categorize as work that no one else wants to do. It literally brought me to tears because here I am this guinea pig trying to make it work because I am thinking "oh this is my opportunity" to advance, to show my abilities.

What Ive learned so far is you have to speak up. You may think that just because you are told to do something, it means you have to do it. Not correct even if it is in a working environment. Never go beyond your means or job description. Everyone in that environment makes a check just like you and you cant allow people to use you because they have set in their mind "oh she'll do it." People will be people and will take advantage of you if you allow them to. NO! The answer is no.

All my life I have been a "yesman". That stops now!

Speaking up caused me to see that yes I was given tasks out of my scope and it gave clarity so that the next person does not have to deal with what I went through.

Speaking up made me feel better and helped me to sleep better at night.

Long story short, I cannot wait until February is over so that I can get out of this situation. Never again!

So the moral of the story is dont let people/money deter you from your mental health and standing for yourself. I would much rather have good health and a peace of mind than a million dollars in the bank...think about it.

Hope this makes sense. There is only so much I can never know whose reading:)


Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Y'all I am going through... When will this nightmare end?

Tell y'all about it later of course

Monday, January 23, 2012


today i came to the conclusion that no matter how you may try to make something work, it never will if it is not meant to be. sometimes decisions come our way that look like they may be beneficial to you, but every opportunity that knocks just may not be meant to be answered but simply ignored. no matter how hard it knocks, remember another opportunity will come knocking another day.

i guess it is safe to say, i know what i want...thats for sure. so i every experience has a purpose and a lesson to be learned. just make sure you take notes.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Monday, January 16, 2012

Ive Been TAGGED! (yay!)

I have been tagged by the lovely Dreek♥ - Please go and check her blog out. You will not be disappointed:)

  1. You must post 11 random things yourself.
  2. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post.
  3. Create 11 new questions for the people you tag to answer.
  4. Go to their blog and tell them that you've tagged them.
Let's get started!

11 Random things about me:

I have 1 younger sister and we are 7 years apart.
I cannot go a day without listening to music.
I have no favorite color.
I sing.
I am a college graduate with a job.
I love butterflies.
Musiq Soulchild is my favorite male artist.
Brandy is my favorite female artist.
I drive a 2005 Nissan Maxima.
When I was little, I dreamed of becoming a professional singer. Boy does time change.
I do more thinking than living.

11 Questions from Dreek♥  :
Where are you from? I am from Houston

Do you wear make-up? No, this needs to change.....well only on special occasions or for church (dont judge me lol)
How many pair of shoes do you own? ( a guesstimate is ok) Hmmmm...I am going to guesstimate around 20.

Are you single? Automatic yes...been single all my sad :(

Do you have pets? No pets...if I did I would have fish.
What is your favorite food to make? My favorite food to make is chocolate chip cookies.

What is your favorite TV show? Hmmmm....It is a tie between Martin and The Game
Do you have a twitter? Yes @Love1FreeDom - I follow back:)

What do you mainly blog about? I mainly blog about God, life, poetry, and music.

How do you feel about GOD? GOD is the center of my joy. He is my maker and there is none above Him! Love Him dearly!

11 people I chose for tagging are:
.i heard you were looking for me.
★☆Starrla Monae★☆
♥Nikki Ms.Healthy KISSES♥
Beautiful Rose


11 questions you have to answer from me:
  1. What is your favorite color?
  2. What is your favorite movie?
  3. What motto/saying do you live by and keeps you inspired?
  4. Where are you from?
  5. What is one goal you have accomplished that you never thought would come to pass?
  6. How many siblings do you have?
  7. What is your twitter?
  8. What is your favorite hobby aside from blogging?
  9. Why do you blog?
  10. Where are some places you have traveled to you would recommend?
  11. What is the one thing you cannot live without?
Have fun!

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Speak Up!

Sometimes you have to voice your inside concerns. You should never feel it is ok to be run over or misunderstood. People cant read minds. They barely can read books. Think about it....lesson learned:)

Monday, January 9, 2012

Today's Motto

Motto - Place your best foot forward at all never know when you may have to back track.

One thing that I have learned from this life is you always have to remain positive because all in all, you will make it! It is just a matter of when. You dont know what opportunity awaits, so you must always be on your best behavior:)

Saturday, January 7, 2012

be patient.

this first week of the new year has really shown me that through patience you can allow your life to fall in its rightful place. we pray and hope that God listens but we forget the fact that He is there all the time. this week started off on 1/1/12 with my girls. we connected for one of my friends b-day and it really and truly made me feel grateful and appreciative for the few friends i do have. it is just amazing to see how far we all have come (all college graduates...whoop whoop!!!). i am so proud of each and every one of them and i know God has so many things in store for them. somehow i could feel the genuineness (if thats a word lol) and the unspoken bond. God i thank U right now!!! later on in this week i started back at work with a new attitude and an open mind. with that said, by letting go of figuring out what was next for me and giving it completely to God, it has definitely been a weight off my shoulders. i know this sounds like a ramble but if you've made it this far, there is a moral...just wait for it lol. on Wednesday, i was able to link up with a lady i have been looking up to since my permanent start with the job i am at now and finally i asked her to be my mentor. she accepted and Lord knows it can only get better for me. hopefully i will be able to decide if where i am now is where i will ultimately be. same day, i was granted an opportunity to give support on a major project that im sure if everything goes well, it will attest to my capability and could help me further my career (i can do ALL things through Christ that strengthens me!!!). the opportunity started the next day, Thursday. if you know me well, i am very anxious, indifferent, and excited all at once when something like this happens to me. Wednesday night my stomach was in knots. i even contemplated about giving a reason why i shouldnt take the opportunity. dare i say i was fearful and all the "i can do all things through Christ that strengthens me" was out the window. but God willing i was successful on Thursday and cannot wait to continue and learn as much as possible from the experience.

the moral of the story is let it go and give it to God completely, not partially, not 50%, not 99.9%, but COMPLETELY. let Him fulfill your dreams. He will not allow you stay in one place forever but you gotta be patient! i know bad days come and Lord knows i have had my few but through it all, God was there all the time. so my mindset now and going forward is through every test, struggle, or situation, God has complete control even though you may feel you have some control. He knows all. one day you could be living under a bridge and the next you are the president of the U.S.A. (i know thats a stretch...but thats just the God i believe i serve). put all your trust in Him and watch Him work.