Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Sunday, August 29, 2010
I know I havent been blogging as much as I used. There is alot going on in this mind of mine that sometimes I just dont have the words...
September 21st will mark my 90 days at my temp job and honestly I have no idea where that is going...I have spoken to people and I have been getting nothing but positive feedback BUT I am starting to feel that this is not the place for me just simply because I would rather go into something of course more secure and relative to my major.
GOOD NEWS (not confirmed yet):
My friend from college gave me an insight to a job in Cincinnati, OH that offers security and the ability to travel which I have been craving for lately (living at home is getting a little old...I WANT TO GO PLACES!!!)
This opportunity will allow me to branch out and travel while giving me some job security:) SOOOOO I am praying that this works out for me. The deadline for this opportunity is Sept. 9th and from there I find out whether or not I can be interviewed. The best part about it all is I was able to know someone at this job that believes I could be a great fit so like the saying says, "its not always what you know, sometimes its who you know".
BTW, I cleaned out my closet!!! It feels so good:) It is really going to help me in the morning...:)
Well thats all that is going on with me...I still havent found too many things to do outside of shopping and going to the movies w/o my friends (all are in school or up north).
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
I am realizing that I have no love because I simply havent fallen in love with myself, so I have just been living a life without love-ing myself...
This week has been lllooonnnggg for me. There are alot of challenges I am facing with my self-esteem and just overall confidence when it comes to my social and professional life...
Losing weight is my battle and I have yet to win it...but I know someday I will...sssooooo I think I may just try weight watchers because I just cant do it on my own nemore...
It is mental and starts with me...this is what I plan to do...I have to confess that I need professional help because I have tried and failed too many times and I dont want to miss out on my tweenties by someday saying "coulda shoulda woulda"
BTW have ne of you used weight watchers...if so, how did it go?!?
I was also thinking about getting a personal trainer...but that may be a little out of my budget.
Well I am soooo tired and sleepy so I will def talk to you guys more later:)
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Saturday, August 14, 2010
NEWAYS...yesterday was crazy, beautiful, strange, up, and down. I had one of the busiest days at work. I was making mistakes (not all day but I made more than one) but yet my boss was really happy with me...strange right?! I KNOW....like it was just all over the place...have you ever had a day like this where everything is going right and wrong and you just feel weird all over?! To top it all off though I met a new friend that I can see myself hanging out with at work (you know during lunch)...she's from the east coast and knows how to dress...she is very outgoing...def someone I can see myself spending alot of time with:) We kind of think alike and we had great conversation...something that I missed from my past friendships..so Im happy about this newness:)
It is amazing how God puts whatever you need in your life to lift your spirits when you feel you are all alone:)
Well today I am feeling refreshed and eager to just relax and enjoy the day:)
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Monday, August 9, 2010
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Thursday, August 5, 2010
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Right now I feel like my days are passing by....
Friends are very few...
I feel a bit incomplete.
Weight stands in my way to live, but it seems every time I put my mind to getting in shape, something happens. For example, this is embarrassing, but this past week I became constipated. If you have never had this feeling then I can compare it to a stomach ache that doesnt go away no matter how much medicine you take. Your body has to run its course and you have to wait for it. So, at work, I am a receptionist. Long story short, I do my job sitting down which didnt make the situation any better:( This week I started working out and couldnt do it for the entire week because of this. All I wanted to do was lay down or release...
But this is the story of my life. I havent witnessed a time where I am truly doing something just based on what I want. It always includes how it may look to others.
If I had my way I would be doing something with singing/music/some type of artistry production. This is something I would do even if it didnt pay me. Why havent I? Hmmmm....
I think that life just takes you in certain directions and choices have to be made...all in all you are where you are suppose to be...(hope that makes sense)
BUT back to my passion, I have come to realize that maybe my purpose will not end up to be what I do professionally...(sucks hard to realize that)
Have I missed my turn?