Friday, July 31, 2009

Reminiscing....(poems)

These are all untitled...just me reminiscing.

You invade my thoughts
What I had for you I thought was lost
The reoccurrences have to stop
It is getting harder to sleep
Cause every time I close my eyes
There u are saying those sweet lines
It is taking too long to get over
And somehow you are taking over
It’s like a force of nature
Back and forth, up and down
Weird yes but there is no way around it
The more I say no and forget you
The more I can’t get my mind off of you
When your name is mentioned
I get embarrassed and I hope once again it is mentioned
There is nothing like it
And until then I’ll just have to fake it
And play tough girl
Hold my head up though I want you in my world
Just for that last kiss
Last wish and to hold you
Talk and let the conversation unfold too
Man I gotta get over you
Like right now though
But walking down this hallway
Every morning I see you
And I wait for your quick hello and awkward silence
In my mind I result to secluded violence
Lord knows there is no way for me to hurt you
Even at a chance cause that’s just my virtue
That speaks and reminds me of what it is
And how it has to be with this
All a girl needs is closure
But then these feelings will be at exposure
So thanks for the hurt, pain, mixed feelings, and lessons
I really do appreciate my hidden blessings





Confusion makes me wonder
Frustration is what comes and puts me under
The thought of you is mixed
Cause all I can think about is
What was promised
Happy and sad lies in the mist
Want you to go but you will be missed
I have to admit
Cause as of now I can’t keep your name from my lips
Meditation takes the place
Of seeing your not wanted face
With those juicy this and that
Brown eyes to accent for fact
You are the epitome of what daddy said no to
Well never to be exact
I want to run to you but run back
Let me stop that




you appeared as the one
but now i want none
"what if?" i say to myself
thank God i found out you were nuthin else
i thought it was you
but learned what i thought wasn't true
i thought it could be
the many dreams of you and me
i thought this was different
thought you could build my confidence and
i thought i thought i thought and i thought
i thought i knew but i had noooooo idea............
i know now that my what ifs could have changed my life
i know now that you are exactly NOT
i know now we could neva be
there is no one perfect but i can't let you get the best of me
just think the thoughts could have lead to my misery

what does your reflection show...?





The people we are in relationship with
are always a mirror, reflecting our own beliefs,
and simultaneously we are mirrors, reflecting their beliefs.
So... relationship is one of the most powerful tools for growth....
If we look honestly at our relationships,
we can see so much about how we have created them.

~ Shakti Gawain ~

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Randomosity




10 Random Facts (you may not know about me) :

1. I AM SHY at first. It takes time for me to get comfortable with somebody. I will admit I do have a major trust issue...sometimes I miss out on some great stuff because of it. But once I get comfortable, you cant stop me from talking.

2. I DON'T HAVE A FAVORITE COLOR. I used to pick pink because I thought since I was a girl that should be my favorite color. I now believe that every color has its own essential role. One does not out weigh the other in my world. They are all beautiful in their own way.

3. I HAVE DEJA VU. For the most part it comes at the weirdest time. It be the most simplest (is this a word?) things that have no relevance at all (this is not a sentence but oh well...you get me). It just comes out of nowhere. Maybe it will serve a meaning as time passes.

4. I LOVE HELPING OTHERS. I feel so much better when I am able to give someone encouragement and help them with situations to the best of my abilities. It gives me a sense of confidence and purpose.

5. I PUT PEOPLE ON HIGH PEDESTALS at first contact/glance. As soon as a person does anything out of character, I am quick to judge and I don't want to admit it but I keep a red X calculator. You can read between the lines. It does help me to weed out alot of nonsense, but it can get unfair.

6. I CANT GO A DAY W/O MUSIC. It is like my therapy. I cant even go to sleep without listening to a song or two.

7. I DON'T WEAR HIGH HEELS. I buy them sometimes, but I never wear them. They really hurt my feet and are just uncomfortable for my foot type (flat feet).

8. I HATE WHEN PEOPLE I DON'T TALK TO ADD ME ON FACEBOOK. I think it is because they want to just be nosey like me. We are never going to have a conversation in person even on facebook but maybe a "happy birthday."

9. I HAVE AN OBSESSION WITH QUOTES, METAPHORS, THEMES, AND SYMBOLISM. This is another form of therapy for me. I am always on someones website, blog, or random fb statuses to find another angle to express common life experiences.

10. I WANTED TO BE A SUPERSTAR. Yes I, Dominique Nicole, wanted to be the next Beyonce, Brandy, Mya, Ashanti, Monica, etc. I wanted my name in bright lights ( and the audience goes wild..."ahhhhhhh"). I had it all figured out in my mind of course, but as I got older I realized that that's not really what I wanted for my life. I couldn't handle all of that pressure on me 24/7. But I have found that I'm still a SUPERSTAR in my own light.

this must be my cupid...


tic.tac.toe





Remember when this used to be the greatest game ever! Things were so simple way back when.
I remember getting in trouble elementary for playing this...it just never ended:)





OMG this used to be it...I was so gone lol

HHHeeeeyyy!!! How are you guys??

This summer is coming to a close for me. I will be back at the da good ol WU in Ohio in exactly a week. I am excited yet scared but Im going to be alright (this is the last year)...I just have that feeling...God has something in the works for me. I have come so far and I am still running. All I can be is thankful and appreciative for the good and bad times especially the bad times because they allowed the good times. I am thankful for the few people I surround myself with, family, and even the ones I am now disconnected from. I am so grateful for the blessings already set in place over my life. I know this only the beginning to a beautiful story.

Just when I stopped worrying...
Thats when things started happening...

Let go and Let God lead the/my/your way!!!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Happy Birthday to you!!!


Happy Birthday Mama!




Words could never express how much you mean to me. From the day I was born you have sacrificed yourself just for me so that I can have the smile I have on my face today:)...so love this woman!!

Monday, July 27, 2009

Music Game: My life according to MUSIQ SOULCHILD (tag)


man starz you took my favorite girl but I am going to rock with my boo boo Musiq....

Pick Your Artist: musiq soulchild
Are you a male or female? : girlnextdoor
Describe yourself: halfcrazy
How do you feel: whoknows
Describe where you currently live: ridiculous
If you could go anywhere, where would you go: marygoround
Your favorite form of transportation: whereareyougoing
Your best friend is: b.u.d.d.y.
Your favorite color is: something
What's the weather like: sobeautiful
Favorite time of the day: romancipation
If your life was a TV show, what would it be called: momentinlife
What is life to you: greatestlove
Your relationships: thequestions
Your fear: love
What is the best advice you have to give?: givemorelove
If you could change your name, you would change it to: ms. philadelphia
Thought for the Day: makeYOUhappy
How I would like to die: millionaire
My soul's present condition: soulstar



I tag:
  1. femi. http://femilives.blogspot.com/
  2. MsRitaJanay
    http://godislovenhappiness.blogspot.com/
  3. S Jones http://sjonesluv.blogspot.com/
  4. ..::KT::..http://paranoidrobocop.blogspot.com/
  5. K.B. http://creativelifeworks.blogspot.com/

This was really fun!!!

Is it just me??

Hey everyone...How are you? Me? I'm counting down 'til I'm back at school....

Today's subject is text messaging. Is it just me or is text messaging becoming the ultimate yet annoying/unattached/uninformative/just plain wrong way to communicate? I feel text messaging is taking away from getting to know people and has excused and erased common communication. I am a victim and doer of these things, but it has been brought to my attention again text messaging is ruining our relationships of all kinds. I don't really know how people feel about me or how they feel about a certain subject because of the "lol", "j/k", and constant emoticons. Can we get back to having a normal, informative, non-interrupted conversation? Why is it that when you text someone and the text is becoming too long to text (the conversation is getting good and interesting but it is simply too much to text anymore...it deserves a phone call!) you call them and they don't answer the phone, yet you were just like a split second ago texting them?


I have concluded that we are becoming people who don't like to really express how we really feel, so we hide behind text messaging. With a text message you don't have to answer a question right away or say how you really feel right then and there. You can go and think for an hour and text back, but on the phone you can't hide how you feel naturally. You have to talk. There is no time to think of a quick way to get out of babysitting the bad kid, going out on a date with someone you don't want nothing to do with ever in life, or saying I love you.


Does anyone else feel this way
(let me know)? Also, I want to touch on facebook, myspace, twitter, etc. We spend so much time looking at (I'm a criminal too.) who changed their relationship status, what so and so said on so and so wall, did you see what he/she said on him/her status, did you see the pics she posted...she need to stop, and on and on. I personally am the most addictive of them all. I'm waiting on the day when I can just get off of facebook and live life physically instead of electronically totally. Don't get me wrong I do believe in change and technology, but at the same time nothing can take away a genuine hug, true conversation face to face, and just the physical person period whether it be your friend, lover, or family. Let's go back a little:)

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Friday, July 24, 2009

Speaks for itself...


This cracked me up!!!!!



"Snap my fingers, like my chorus"
LOL

I love Maya

One isn't necessarily born with courage, but one is born with potential. Without courage, we cannot practice any other virtue with consistency. We can't be kind, true, merciful, generous, or honest. - Maya Angelou

Touched by An Angel by Maya Angelou

We, unaccustomed to courage
exiles from delight
live coiled in shells of loneliness
until love leaves its high holy temple
and comes into our sight
to liberate us into life.

Love arrivesand in its train come ecstasies
old memories of pleasure
ancient histories of pain.
Yet if we are bold,
love strikes away the chains of fear
from our souls.

We are weaned from our timidity
In the flush of love's light
we dare be brave
And suddenly we see
that love costs all we are
and will ever be.
Yet it is only love
which sets us free.


I know why the caged bird sings by Maya Angelou

A free bird leaps on the back
Of the wind and floats downstream
Till the current ends and dips his wing
In the orange suns rays
And dares to claim the sky.

But a BIRD that stalks down his narrow cage
Can seldom see through his bars of rage
His wings are clipped and his feet are tied
So he opens his throat to sing.
The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
Of things unknown but longed for still
And his tune is heard on the distant hill for
The caged bird sings of freedom.

The free bird thinks of another breeze
And the trade winds soft through
The sighing trees
And the fat worms waiting on a dawn-bright
Lawn and he names the sky his own.

But a caged BIRD stands on the grave of dreams
His shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
His wings are clipped and his feet are tied
So he opens his throat to sing.
The caged bird sings with
A fearful trill of things unknown
But longed for still and his
Tune is heard on the distant hill
For the caged bird sings of freedom.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Good News


Hey everyone!...How are you? Me? I just got some good news...

Ok so something told me to get up and check my student financial account at my school, and yall before I go any further, GOD IS SO GOOD!...I go to check my financial report for this year and of course everything is paid for BUT on top of all that somehow I am getting an early refund of $484 off of myLAST year's account summary. I have been broke all this summer, and have not been able to do most of the things I sought out for this summer. In a way Im kind of happy that I wasnt because it helped me to see alot of things clearly (when you down, you really get to see who is for and against you), so I guess I mean know you can say, it was all meant for my good. Yall I cannot stop smiling:). He is just so awesome! I know that God is more than monetary blessings, but I have to say that going into this last year I didnt know where I was going to get any money because I wasnt going to recieve work/study (steady check) throughout the semester like I have for the past three years. I am so grateful and so thankful!!!


Here is a bible verse I have kept in my spirit: 11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.-Jeremiah 29:11

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

IT'S NECCESSARY! II: Where are you headed?


Lately I have of course been thinking about my future and all that it will entail (its my theme of this summer), and I have found that in order to reach all my possibilities I have to let go, let God, and move on. You cant just go somewhere without a starting point. You have to make plans and take things step by step. We are not scared of the finish but more so of the start. Go at your own pace. Yes you may see others and what they have, but your story is going to be your story. You just may have to erase some phone numbers, delete friends off of these social networks, or simply isolate yourself from those you know aint no good for you at this time. You have to struggle and have things happen so one day you can enjoy and appreciate all the things God has waiting for you, so learn from the past, take advantage of the present, and prepare for the future because it is coming. To all of you who are just like me on a steady grind for your independence, knowledge, and wisdom, I tell you now that you are not alone, and God has you in his hands. He loves us too much to forsake us, so in all you do, give your all without comparison to the next person. Follow your own dreams and no one elses and remember to listen to His voice instead of others that see your potential and are willing to say or do anything neccessary to make sure you dont own up to your highest statue. Love you all and God bless you:)



Dream!



Have you ever felt like this?



Monday, July 20, 2009

What is your worth?




Hello how are you? Me? Im good...I have a question for you...what is your worth??

Peace & Love



Saturday, July 18, 2009

Finding Absolution...(poem)

i am lost and i am sad

i am confused and it feels so bad

u look at me and it seems to be alright

but u dont see my tears at midnight

im happy to know that im not alone

but still it doesnt take away the stones thrown

im not dead but i feel halfway there

but i know that He still cares

life is something else i know we lose sometimes

is my thoughts and doings such a crime

im missing u and it is so hard to say

but with myself i cant play

we are to grow up and not down

so that one day we may be less lost and found

crazii feelings all over the place

keeps me with this sad face

cause i dont know what to make or do with you

my God im so confused....



oldie but goodie:)



For the Love of Music







I thought this was just 2cute:)

Rare Gem (poem)

as i continue

i think of the new

beginnings life has to offer

never would have thought of

but yet it is here

future seems less far but near

i am now as this rare gem

ready to shine for them

but yet i am dimmed by world's position

i can't wait for my season

just waiting for every reason and lesson

cause im forever learning

a work of art steady molding

and transforming so one day i am butterfly

flying through with colors of beauty

but not i am just now a rare gem

please don't condemn

cause im just me

that's how i know forever now it will be

never can i force you to see

my beauty, my grace

just as close sort of looking into His holy face

yes that will be the day i will rejoice forever

can't wait to be all about His praise

for all of the days

left i have to give

for Him i want to live

as long as this promised eternal keeps calling

ill keep drawing

but i am now just...rare gem

i hope i am found by him


I wrote this a while ago but it is still relevant:)

Guess Who????



Friday, July 17, 2009

IT'S NECCESSARY!



hate
slander
hurt
sadness
pain
mistreatment
lies
misunderstanding
loneliness
frowns
confusion
impossibility
arguments
disaster
stupidity
punishment
negativity
nightmares
rain
wrong
abandonment

are all necessary for

love
peace
laughter
understanding
positivity
longevity
sunshine
knowledge
growth
maturity
strength
courage
dreams
passion
right
joy
happiness
smiles
possibility
truth
salvation

Thursday, July 16, 2009

So there's this man... (poem)

every girl dreams of that day

when he comes and carries her away

ive had this dream more than once

and ladies nothing else amounts

joy undescribed and peace so divine

listen to what i tell you cause i aint lyin

his statue is like no other

yes he is my kind of lover

he can have anyone and yet he still wants me

and girl his comfort soothes every part of me

he tells me everyday im his work of art

and never does he come at me smart

when he holds me in his arms

im his good luck charm

im his bride

he's my guide

his presence makes me blush

and with him i dont have to rush

and honey he's all man

you should see what he can do with his hands

he keeps the motion in the ocean

i love every portion

true friend indeed

supplies every need if you know what i mean

boo boo he is my mister wonderful

and he is so irresistable

one touch and you set for life

never steps to me trife

never once called me out my name

he aint no lame or with the games

holds every door and pulls out ever chair

yes girl he is always there and on top of that he cares

try to compare him well i wouldnt dare

i call him Jesus...and im not afraid to share:)


I wrote this a while ago, but it is still relevant.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Family is Forever:)


Hey everyone...How are you? Im getting ready for my little visitor and as always Im thinking...

My little cousin is coming over so it will give me something to look forward to for today. This will be the first time that I would have to entertain a six year old but its cool lol. I do believe that we as family need to be around each other so that one day we will have cherished memories, and we need to get to know each other cause you just never know who you may need one day. Just this past weekend I went to Dallas, TX for a family reunion on my mother's father's side, and it is just amazing how time flies. It also made me see how we as family arent as tight/close knit as it was back in the day. Now everyone is off doing their own thing, and there is no time for the family. We need to bring some of that back because like I said you just never know when you need your family because friends come and go but family is forever.:)

Monday, July 13, 2009

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Keisha Chante plays Aaliyah in new movie!!!




She does resemble Aaliyah alot.



Obama was not looking at that woman's behind!




Looking at the vid, I do not think Obama was looking at her butt, but as far as the other guy, thats a different story.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Feel like crying but He makes me smile again:)

Hey I know it is late but I just had to come with this post...btw how are you guys?

Anyways, I am getting ready to go out of town tomorrow for a family reunion and idk today I just got this feeling. I was of course thinking about my future, finances, and love of course and I just got this overwhelming feeling. I was taking a bath (just relaxing as usual) and tears began to fall down my face. When the tears started, I was unsure why tears were just falling (have you ever just cried and not known why you were crying?...maybe it just happens to me). As the tears were falling I began to think of course for 1. why am I crying? 2. where is all this emotion coming from? So while thinking I began to think of all the things God is doing with me and I began to thank Him. He told me He had me and everything was going to be alright. There has been alot of things coming clear to me over this summer not just in my life, but He is showing Himself also in others, and I guess I am in a place where I am so scared but Im so ready...idk its hard to explain it all even as I am typing but I just want to share that God will comfort you while in the midst of your troubles. Everything is not what I want it to be but He is just making a way out of NO WAY!!! I guess for the first time I am seeing the God I serve and who I tell others about in a deeper place. I am beginning to be happy and content with many things. Have you ever known you were destined for greatness but at the same time you are so afraid and scared? I am beginning to erase this negative spirit and I am beginning to like this place. I know this is only the beginning...:)


Now I can go to sleep lol...sweet dreams and goodnight:)

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Gotta Love BRANDY aka B-ROCKA




I love her so much...I swear I am her biggest fan lol

iLike2Listen: JoJo




Bittersweet

Hello, How are you? Im good:)

I just thought I come on here and post something since I am sitting here so bored. I am still working out and trying to lose something before it is time to go back to school. I bought my plane ticket today, so I will be back at Wilberforce Univ. Aug. 6. I cannot wait to see what is in store for my last year there. I know it will somehow be bittersweet because I want to enter into the next chapter of independence of my life, but I still want to a college girl full of wonder. I am in the works of speaking with some people that will possibly help me find something when I graduate. I am really looking for an internship for when I graduate rather than an actual job (but who knows) because I barely have any work experience outside of my work/study job at school and the internship I had last summer at an elementary school. So yea thats about it. Of course I am constantly thinking about my future and all the things it will consist of, so I am staying prayful and focused:)

Quote of the day: Opportunities are usually disguised as hard work, so most people don't recognize them.- Ann Landers

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Now THEY can leave him alone...RIP Michael Jackson


I have to say the memorial was wonderful. It was very appropriate and fitting, a true homegoing.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Why should I fall?? (a lil rant lol)


Hello...Im sitting thinking again...

OK so I am talking with a friend who has been in this serious relationship and it has now ran its course. Of course you know I lend an ear to the situation, and it has kind of broke my heart a little because who wants to see anyone go through a heartbreak? But my question to you is WHY SHOULD WE FALL IN LOVE only to land on concrete?

Now me as an individual wouldnt consider myself being someone who has falling in love or has been in a serious relationship, but what I can say is I know how it feels to be disconnected from someone you really once cared about especially when you visualize you and this person getting really close, and to them you were just another girl they wanted to take a precious jewel from. Its like one minute you are making plans to start something really good and it just gets taken away due to finances, change of heart, stupidity, or the season of that connection has just passed on.

How can you honestly know love when it comes? Why do married people divorce? Why is it so hard to find that special someone? I can go on and on but you get my drift.

Im just simply tired of seeing love lost. I am tired of guys that think they are God's gift to the world. I am tired of living the cycle of let men be men, and just because he cheated, its ok because thats just what men do (ladies we need to stop accepting this and speak positive because all men do not cheat...you are just giving them reason to do so). Im tired of seeing people settle because they feel this is the best they can do, but you fail to realize that one day you will have kids. Youll have to explain to lil one why you and daddy argue 99% of the time you are around each other. Im tired of girls that think since I got a man or a piece of a man for that matter that life is all good, and as long as he spends $20 on me he loves me (omg...ladies come on...we have to set the standard or else we will continue to live in the cycle). I am tired of guys that say there are no good women out here when Im standing right here in your face. I am tired of being single and in constant wonder of when he will find me (a woman of virtue).

Im really starting to feel like I am going to have to compromise my beliefs and morals just to draw attention because being the good girl is no longer accepted or attractive. Nobody wants to chase. Whatever happened to getting to know someone before the physical? Its like they want the goods without paying for them (doesnt make any sense to me). We are doing it backwards. I mean is there something that I missed along the way? Did I miss the train when it came to town? I mean somebody let me know. Everyone wants IT right now, right quick. This love thing is just simply unfair and unreasonable.

OK maybe its not all the way unfair because there are some proof of the real out here, but it is scarce definitely scarce. I havent given up on it, but Im just speaking on what I see, how I feel right now, and just how it is becoming...

Quote of the day: The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed.-Carl Jung

Saturday, July 4, 2009

ENJOY!!!

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!!! ENJOY YOURSELF AND btw check out my girl on youtube....

Thursday, July 2, 2009

HOLD ON and DONT LET GO!!!

Hello how are you? Me? Im okay...everyday above ground is a good day:)

Last night I got a phone call from my mentor and I have to say that it opened my eyes to alot of things. It wasnt necessarily things that I dont know or havent spoke on before but it was just a reminder of how we gotta keep our focus on us and try to comprehend that everyones story is not ours. We all have a purpose and mission here on earth, and our job is just that, so there is no need to complain...just live through your story because you just never know how it may help the next person then the next and thereon...thats what this thing is all about. Its not about living each day trying to out do the next person cause right there is where things get complicated and then confusing so focus on yourself and everything will in time happen the way they ought to and the way it was promised to you.

I count it a priviledge to be looked at as someone people can come to for advise, a laugh, or just conversation (not many can say this...so Im grateful for it). Also yesterday I got a message from a friend that is going through some things and after reading what he was going through I felt happy that I was able to share a few words of encouragement...I can remember the days when I would have had nothing to say. This lets me know that there is some growth, and I need to start being thankful for the growth.

Remember that you cant get something out of nothing so DONT LET GO:)!!!!...HOLD ON for the long run!!!!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Jazmine Sullivan "Cry"



This girl is a BEAST!